Thanks to samarpita n her frnds for coining the name

 

 

Each time I see her I love her more knowing that she is someone else’s

Each time I look at her I betray the love that I feel

And also the hurt coz she feels the same for someone else

Why cant I be like him…I wonder

What has he got that I don’t???

And these thoughts go on n on

Till I am so frustrated that I go back to the excuse that I don’t love her

And that I only wanna remain her best friend forever

 

I tried so hard to be the man of her dreams

I wanted so much to be the cause of the sparkle in her eye

Each time she speaks of hime its like my heart is burning in flame

Each time I don’t react to what she says ,her face falls and its me who is to blame

I don’t have the strength to smile at her and cry on the inside

To tell her the truth and be the obstruction to her paradise

I knew that he controls how she feels and am sick worrying

But I cant dream of ruining the happiness she is feeling

On one hand I fear the pain he can cause her

While on the other I cant imagine causing her any

 

Oh god…wat am I supposed to do???

You play a game in which Im a nothing but a fool

A fool who will hate himself no matter what he does

Because he con anly cause sorrow to the one he loves’

What am I supposed to do tell me God!!

How can you expect me to love as well as lose her in a single thought??

This is an attempt at writing a general poem.....

very small one...am tryin to write ones dat can be converted to songs....here goes

 

Depression is my life,Everyday is a crisis

Grief is my way,Hatred is the game my mind plays

Each gud deed for me  done ,Triggers in me nothing but scorn

 

Because When I recall the help I get,only the look of pity n fear stays

 

Every gud deed done for me,Shall not be an unpunished one

because behind each kind face is another one,Betraying horror at what with me God has done

 

 

The look of pity n fear still stays…….

 

The look of pity n fear stays…….

 

The look of pity n fear stays…...

She was the one who gave birth to me

The one whose thoughts shaped me

She was the one who taught me to talk

The one who took my hand in hers n made me walk

 

 

Time flew by as I grew older

My mind started shifting to new things,feeling bolder

As the challenges life threw at me grew

She stood beside me and saw me through

But somewhere in between as I faced the tough times

My eyes didn’t notice that her face was filling with lines

I kept thinking Id spend time with her after this quest

But then it wud be after the coming one,then the next

 

She never complained,never she did

She was just happy to see me growing from boy to the man that I did

And one fateful day ,suddenly,she just left

Leaving me with those empty promises of spending time with her that I never kept

I think of all the times she needed my shoulder

Only to end up taking my head in her lap and listen to my woes as I told her

And then Ive realized what Ive lost

The nothing which Ive achieved and the loneliness Ive now got

 

 

 

Now when I desperately want to feel her presence in this room

I only have the empty air creating an even bigger vacuum

And it sinks in that she is gone forever

My mother whom how much I dearly loved I never told her....

This is a very dark one.....inspired by "Shantaram" n some other incidents etc.....

 

My throat aches dry from the urge

My voice silently screams as for the vien my hands search

The needle is in my hand

Just a prick away from taking me to my dreamland

My muscles ache to loosen

To again feel the toxin make all slacken

My brain desperately seeks the “cure”

To all the thoughts that madden me all the more

My mind drowns in a whirlpool of thoughts

How the present the past has wrought

The blood of foe that stains my hands

The betrayal of friend that pierces my heart

The death of my brother in front of my eyes

The way they all tore apart my paradise

Yet now After I have avenged all of them

My mind still doesn’t attain the peaceful realm

And so I now resort to the needle

Because what I want only it can wheedle

As I plunge the needle into my vein

And feel the drug deaden the pain

I go back to the paradise that I crave

The world of darkness where I rave

One of these days will be one of those

When I shall take that larger dose

And I shall finally live in my paradise forever

And maybe somehow forgive all…bt myself..NEVER!!!

 

 

 

This one is inspired by Metallica/Bob Sager's Turn the Page....

 

 

I wake up in the morning ,another day which starts in the night

As people around me give up,not ready to stand up and fight

I gather myself together,thinking about the road ahead

Here I am, thats the world

Here I am,This is my way

 

As the clock ticks two I stand, and stretch long and wide

Hoping that it will somehow,take away the frustration I feel inside

The will that is inside me,makes me stand up to the night

Here I am,thats the world

Here I am,This is MY way

 

 

As I go to work I think about,the people that I have lost

The pals of mine who stayed awhile,then left because they thought I was lost

I wonder  for a moment,what if they are right

But then know in my heart,dat it was worth it just to fight

Here I am,thats the world

Here I am,This is MY way

 

 

Today I stand successful,people looking at me from the crowd

Many wondering how lucky I am,to have reached  upto this cloud

I look back at the days,when I needed cash no one wud lend

The times life gave  me no option to stand,but just to bend

my heart wud push me further,telling me patience will give godsend

and finally I am here,satisfaction running through me end to end

 

 

When the whole world is against you,n you just wanna give up

Just ask your heart a question,Is this all dat I got

And once you get the answer,there will be no stopping you

Come whatever may,your just not gonna lose

 

Here I am,THIS IS THE WORLD

Here I am..and THIS IS THE WAY

 

From the time he is born the first thing he is taught

Is to Be like the one who is always sought

From the time he learns to spell success

He is told why someone is treated with more respect while someone less

So he starts looking here and there

At people who are considered to be the best there ever were

and he starts imitating their actions for one sole reason

So that one day some kid listens to his tale and makes him his shining beacon

But of course he reaches nowhere

and den he wonders why he isn’t d hero who is now standing there…

suddenly he sees the connect which seems so obvious now

The simple idea which never struck him bcoz of listening to the orthodox crowd

That when he was taught “We are who we choose to be” as a kid

He always assumed It was either this or that guy because of sumthing he did

While actually the one who stands on top chooses neither

He chooses to be himself and dats the life’s mystery’s answer

A couple of days back I had the privilege to meet a very successful entrepreneur. This post is regarding that unforgettable experience.

I had heard the saying many times “To do BIG one needs to THINK BIG”, but I realized its significance only on that day. From the whole experience I learnt two things in short, the value of entrepreneurship and second, the importance of thinking big and achieving it.

It is very easy to take up a job and sit and listen to what goals need to be achieved from the person above you, even if it means slogging like a dog because, at the end of the day, its not your money that is on the line. What you risk is one meager job, while what you may have done to lose it may be a blunder costing millions of dollars. But when it is your money that’s on the line, each step you take will be given the value it rightfully deserves. But the obvious problem in this whole idea is that if a person wants to be a successful entrepreneur and do really well, he has to think really big and out of the box, and also have the guts to carry it out, knowing well that that a mistake may cause catastrophe.

The person I had the opportunity of meeting built a huge mall, a multiplex, a residential complex, a corporate complex, a hospital, schools and a 3 hotels (a 5star,a 3star and a 7star), a convention center, a stadium and an opera theatre all in one area next to each other. Basically what he did is that he built the best ever foundation that could be provided to an area that was once not even heard of. This is what I believe is entrepreneurship. Sure, he will make a lot of money etc. but everything that he has done results in only one thing-development of the country. Throughout the whole meeting, I was struck by the amount of social responsibility that an entrepreneur carries and the good the he/she can do if he/she wants. The second thing I was struck about was the sheer guts of the whole idea. Each building that was being built had something different about it i.e.: stood out either in the country or in the whole world, and hence would be enormously expensive. The thing to admire about the whole venture is that it was not necessary to make buildings of that caliber, because it is very evident that the way the Indian population is growing, there is no doubt that his venture will be a great success no matter the quality. Yet he did it. Why? To ensure that the city develops to be one of the best in the nation and hence follows the idea given by our President A.P.J.Abdul Kalam, that after the metropolitan cities, there is a need for a number of cities to develop to the level of metropolitan city if vision 2020 is to be reached.

Such a great success obviously must have had even greater risks. The important thing to note about this venture was that the person itself undertook the entire investment. Hence all his money was on the line, not like a company that takes money from the public. Of course, due to this the profit would also be the company’s alone, but that is not the point. The point is that when a person envisages something so different and so huge, even with all the preparation and assessment, it is an enormous decision to go with it. The conviction of the person in the endavour is what I feel is a thing to learn.

With such a successful venture, a hundred people could live generation after generation on the rent etc of the constructions built. But the plans of the company are quite different. Now, the company proposes to built a whopping 20 cities of this sort, all having one thing in common-It has to be the best in its area. One can imagine what a boost this would be to the economy of the country, with the employment opportunities, the infrastructure, the education, the availability of medical aid and so on and so forth. This I believe is the trademark of a successful entrepreneur. Once a venture is successful, to forget about it and have the fire in the belly for an even bigger venture.

This whole experience was an eye-opener for me, and that is why I am posting it. Any comments or discussions would be greatly appreciated

This one is inspired by Three Doors Downs-Be Like That...though The lyrics is completely on a different thought process...Ive made the lyrics wid the tune vaguely in my mind..

 

 

 

He lives his whole life making new friends

on and on forgetting the rest

and at some time he wonders..

Is the sum1 ive left??

He moves from here to there

Promising to keepin touch

While in his heart he knows

its not going to last...

 

All of them say they know him best

but the truth is dat no one does

coz he lives a different life in front of em all...

keeping his feelings to himself

coz he knows that the one he knows best today

he will not tomorrow

he thinks life is too short to be close to just 1 person

and yet too long to commit to one

and dats why before he decides to say hi

he is already preparing his gudbyes..

 

He says he has a million friends

while actually he has none

coz he lives two lives

and none of em know the real one

Yet sumwhere among them is this girl...

who knows him better ,the  more he desperately tries otherwise

coz he knows whats is so today is not tomorrow

but what his mind speaks his heart just does not follow..

n so this is gonna b a tale of yet another hearbreak

unless he puts her off….for both’s sake….

Coz he will have to move again tomorrow

And he cannot afford this feeling…coz it will only result in sorrow

 

 

How would it be to die

To feel ur heart stop as ur mouth goes dry

How would it be to just cry

To lighten your heart out as the tears roll by

How would it be like to just sleep

To not bat an eyelid as the whole world takes a leap

these are things we shall never know

They will just be things bout which we shall think,give a wry smile n let go

COz all of us are bound

Bound by the chains of commitments around us

never free to do what we wanna do

Never free to experience what we wanna feel

Life is a journey,they say

I say its one in which we sit tied to the back seat

n watch while the flight runs on autopilot

waiting for signs of a crash

So that we too can be "LOST" n then actually find ourselves...

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We enter the class,all benches empty

Yet the race is always for the last one

The prof goes on blabbering

but the one who just doesnt bother is always considered the coolest one

All of us have worked hard to get here

still here we are today,working even harder to screw it up

So All of us,who were studious to the boot

now,cannot help but wonder-Have we lost the route??

Yet none of it seems wrong

The more the prof ignores us,the more we try to rake up a storm

They say,The better the college,the better the knowledge we recieve

Then why is it that when we are in one of the best,

its the total opposite of what they percieve???

I guess the knowledge that we get here is just one important one

Thats what u do just before the test is what counts....the rest is just like stretching before the run

Its funny how people change as time flies by

The pal we know becomes just  another guy

It’s shocking to see a decent enough fellow

Turn to someone so dark he makes the real bad guys seem mellow

But there are few others who make it the other way round

The ones who make the best of the new environment in which they are around

These are the ones who make it really big in life

‘coz they are the ones who take situations in the best spirit, and not just sit and cry

in the end, the obvious question, is , of course, why?

Some blame the system, few thank it

The truth is, you become what you are because of what you make of it

The world places a thousand problems on your head

It’s up to you, if, and when you solve them, hence becoming the sidekick or the one who lead…

People come to college with great expectations

Not about the college but its romantic reverberations

Each one thinks he’ll meet her now,

The one who is meant to be his and that’s why is sent from up above

But day1 arrives, and CRASH goes the dream

And he is so disappointed he wants to scream

Left, right he looks around for maidens in lovely poses

But such a thing here seems as out of place as a desert full of roses

Suddenly, he notices a guy giving him a knowing smile

Looking at which he feels like kicking him hard to feel satisfied

The guy comes to him and says-its ok, I’ve been there, felt that

In time, you will also come to terms and accept this fact

That though college is supposed to be the place to learn to love

Unless you are gay, this statement is not applicable to the college you have chosen now